Friday, December 28, 2012

I Don't Want To Be

Looks like my 2012 ended up all messed up.
Oh glob why?

Look, I am suffering from all these psychological issues
and stuff in my life for a very long time.
I don't really know if I am coping up but at least
college is a great help to open up and trust with people.

The problem is after college I came back to my nutshell
and closed my doors again to the world.
I really don't know I lost trust as years go by
and I am really tired people being so dishonest :'(

Ugh. And lately some chronic depression is making hair loss
and skin fall off like I'm in a chemo therapy.
Even people notice it, my thinning hair, my skin if all being pale
and my whole system is so absurd.

I feel like when I die right now no one will even
notice that I am missing. :"(

It feel so horrible.
I feel so fucking alone and all that crazy stuff
coming inside my head and I feel I'm going nuts.
No one remembered me on Christmas and also
I just see all these HAPPY people I feel
more damn depress in my life.

The problem with me is I think a lot.
And I am a damn hopeless romantic girl.
And thats make all things WORST.

Cause little attention gets into me
And when it is stuck into my head it will run forever
Unless I choose to move on.

I am really, really...
Tired of being alone.


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