Tell Me

What is that sad look in your eyes

Why are you crying

Tell me now, tell me now

Tell me, why you’re feelin’ this way?

I hate to see you so down

Is it your heart

Oh, that’s breakin’ all in pieces

Makin’ you cry

Makin’ you feel blue

Is there anything that I can do?

Why don’t you tell me where it hurts now?

And I’ll do my best to make it better

Yes, I’ll do my best to make those tears all go away

Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me

And I love you with a love so tender

Oh and if you let me stay

I’ll love all of the hurt away 

Where are all those tears coming from?

Why are they falling?

Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold

You just need somebody to hold on, baby

Give me a chance to put back all the pieces

Take your broken heart

Make it just like new

There’s so many things that I can do.

A Little Bit

I was kinda hesitant to tell you 

Should I let you know 

I was never really like this before 

Need I say more 

Or maybe I'm confused 

I don't know what to do or I should be 

There's only one thing in my mind 

That's you and me 

I'm always on a run to see you 

Would you allow me to 

It wasn't my intention to hurt you 

This feeling is true 

I'm a little bit of crazy 

I'm a little bit of a fool 

I'm a little bit of lonely 

I'm a little bit of all 

Oh, I need a cure 

Just a little bit of you 

And I will fall....

Someday Dream

Someday, you'll gonna realize

One day, you'll see this through my eyes

By then I won't even be there

I'll be happy somewhere

Even if I cared

I know you don't really see my worth

You think you're the last guy on earth

Well, I've got news for you

I know I'm not that strong

But it won't take long, won't take long

Right now, I know you can't tell

I'm down and I'm not doin' well

But one day, these tears

They will all run dry

I won't have to cry sweet goodbye

'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me

The way I wanted you to need me

Someday, someone's gonna take your place

One day, I'll forget about you

You'll see, I won't even miss you

Someday, I know someone's gonna be there...

I AM SO TIRED

I need a love that grows

I don't want it unless I know

But with each passin hour

Someone, somehow

Will be there, ready to share

I need a love that's strong

I'm so tired of being alone

But will my lonely heart

Play the part

Of the fool again, before I begin...

Foolish heart, hear me calling

Stop before you start falling

Foolish heart, heed my warning

You've been wrong before

Don't be wrong anymore

I'm feelin that feelin again

I've been playin a game I can't win

Love's knockin on the door

Of my heart once more

Think I'll let him in

Before I begin

Foolish heart, hear me calling

Stop before, you start falling

Foolish heart, heed my warning

You've been wrong before

Don't be wrong anymore

Oh foolish

You've been wrong before

Don't be fool anymore...

She Is

Jealous of the girl who caught your eye

One of my darker days

When you looked at her where was I?

Shoulda been in her place, here I am

All alone imagining what could have been

If I had been there

Jealous of the one whose arms are around you

If she's keeping you satisfied

Jealous of the one who finally found you

Made your sun and your stars collide

Jealous of the one who won your heart

They say it's a perfect match

She's gonna get to be where you are

And I don't get better than that

She'll say you're fine

Whisper words I wish were mine

And they might have been

If I had been there

You know I'd fight the good fight

If I thought I'd change your mind

But if she makes you happy

I would leave that dream behind

Man, she better treat you right

And give you everything

'Cause at the moment she doesn't

I'll be waiting in the wings

She's a very, very lucky girl...

Why Can't We Be

You came along, unexpectedly 

I was doing fine in my little world 

Please don't get me wrong 

'Cause I'm not complaining 

But you see, you got my mind spinning...

Why can't it be 

Why can't it be the two of us ?

Why can't we be lovers 

Only friends ...

You came along 

At a wrong place, at a wrong time 

Or was it me 

Baby I dream of you every minute 

You're in my dreams 

You're always in it 

That's the only place I know 

Where you could be mine 

And I'm yours but only 

Till I wake up 

Why can't it be 

Why can't it be the two of us 

Why can't we be lovers 

Only friends...

You came along 

At a wrong place, at a wrong time.

Or was it me?

Goodbye

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street

You took my hand and danced with me in the shade

And when you left you kissed my lips

You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

I cannot go to the ocean

I cannot try the streets at night

I cannot wake up in the morning

Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted

And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy to walk

Right in and out of my life?

Heaven Seems Far

I don't wanna waste the weekend

If you don't love me pretend

A few more hours then it's time to go

As my train rolls down the east coast I wonder how you keep warm

It's too late to cry

Too broken to move on

Misplaced trust and old friends

Never counting regrets

By the grace of God I do not rest at all

New England as the leaves change

The last excuse that I'll claim

I was a boy who loved a women like a little girl

And still I cant let you be

Most nights I hardly sleep

Don't take what you don't need from me

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore

A drop in the ocean

A change in the weather

I was praying that you and me might end up together?

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert

But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven

You are my heaven...

I Don't Want To Be

Looks like my 2012 ended up all messed up.

Oh glob why?

Look, I am suffering from all these psychological issues

and stuff in my life for a very long time.

I don't really know if I am coping up but at least

college is a great help to open up and trust with people.

The problem is after college I came back to my nutshell

and closed my doors again to the world.

I really don't know I lost trust as years go by

and I am really tired people being so dishonest :'(

Ugh. And lately some chronic depression is making hair loss

and skin fall off like I'm in a chemo therapy.

Even people notice it, my thinning hair, my skin if all being pale

and my whole system is so absurd.

I feel like when I die right now no one will even

notice that I am missing. :"(

It feel so horrible.

I feel so fucking alone and all that crazy stuff

coming inside my head and I feel I'm going nuts.

No one remembered me on Christmas and also

I just see all these HAPPY people I feel

more damn depress in my life.

The problem with me is I think a lot.

And I am a damn hopeless romantic girl.

And thats make all things WORST.

Cause little attention gets into me

And when it is stuck into my head it will run forever

Unless I choose to move on.

I am really, really...

Tired of being alone.

Embellish

Your signals skip past through me

And I can't help myself

Cause I've been a dreamer

And that'll never change

And I saw you from a great distance

And I think its the best feeling

In circle we crashed

Can I keep you?

Cause you know when I dive

I turn too sour into sun dust

My eyes are soulless 

Darker than all shades of black

So can you name it?

Do you know me...

At all?

Calculus

It is, now you can fall.

Oh and I am in the middle of nowhere,

Hanging like a fig tree

Will someone save me?

It's just the strangest thing

I see your face somewhere

Like a love affair

On hot steamy night.

Or maybe somewhere in our past lives

Why do I love you?

Why do I love you?

Why is my heart all cracking

Feels like dying.

But when I look in your eyes

My hear melts

Like a paper in the sand

Never clashes but goes hand in hand.

I knew I love you...

I really do

I really do,

I really...

What!

Yuh.

Its a cold December and Jim Parsons don't even

look like 39 years old!

Aww, I really love The Big Bang Theory.

The only thing that I watch when I am blue

and even when I am fine, its my comfy zone.

Rua

The Wooden

Sinful as fire

Raging in heat

I vowed down

And accepted my defeat

Thou art is burning

My favor is turning

And here I stay

In my sanity's grace

Like a solstice I behold

Stubborn and rummage

I invoked,

Such a courage I hold

But it was a nightmare

A never ending spree

When you are there

And here I lay lonely

In a vast nest

My heart keeps burning

And it teared down every breath

Without a soul returning

Rua

 

Lost In Space

Here's a little galactic art I made.

I know it looks so weird.

But I don't know maybe you guys can appreciate it.

I made this for someone special to me.

Rua

Be My...

As I sit here at my computer typing away
Talking to a person that i think about all day

I wish i could be with them right now
But they live so far away, I dont know how
I want to be with this person so bad
But all I can do is dream which makes me mad

I just want to leave this place
and go see the person's I love face
I sit here dreaming more and more
thinking about you coming to my door

I want to be with you so much
But you're to far away i can't even feel your touch
But No matter the distance we're apart
I'll always love you with my heart

25 Tag Questions!

 

Out of nothing on this world I answered this tag.

Check it out here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZzqdeMDvhaE&feature=youtu.be

It was a 25 questions tag and maybe you guys

can also do it via vlog or blog.

I don't think I should also blog it though.

Its not really entertaining but hey yeah

I am bored and dishearten. Lol.

Rua

Eating Out Depression

So yeah I am back for some itsy bitsy time.

I am being solitude and flying away from the outside world

for a moment because of my sickening depression.

I don't even know the fuck am I doing with my life, freaking impulsive.

So I took some psychological tests and found out I am

all positive with disorders and I was, well, not surprised.

Oh well, I guess I knew somehow I am sad.

That's the picture of what I ate yesterday and yeah I ate

alone at a restaurant some chicken, noodles, egg rice, chips and potatoes.

Well the problem is I have a social disorder so I ate like

a retarded in front of everybody there like my hands are SHAKING terribly

and I can't control it!

Every bite my hands are shaking terribly and my body is shivering like yes, I have

an avoidant disorder. DAFUQ.

Damn, I was a shy, shy deer!

So after I got my salary I stroll at the mall and I don't

know really where to go I wanna do something but

see myself and I just got so freaking lonely there.

Saw things and people with friends and families together

and there I am strolling alone like a skunk.

I was all complaining how misery has taken my life but

I don't want to give chance on suitors, well fuck me right?

Its my damn fault being freaking alone.

But I don't know I'm really fucked up right now.

So everyday I spent my money on foods and thank you 

I have a great metabolism I don't gain weight really even though

I eat like there's no tomorrow!

It's like I need someone to embrace me, say everything will

be alright but no one is there for me.

To add how frustrated I am I joined a dating site?!

But I don't even entertain suitors near me.

The heck is wrong with me. Then I will complain how lonely I am.

I don't know fuck, fuck, fuck!

It's like I am so fed up with the pain I gained before on people who

 lives near me or around my place that I just can't open up anymore.

It was the feeling like you have SOMETHING to say but there is

NOTHING inside of you.

 And now I was listening to damn Avril Lavigne:

"Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you..." 

Fuck.

Rua